I’m usually the type of woman who can be as nice as pie you know the standard how are you how was your day, good thats great but sometimes in my head I’m wondering when will they stop ranting on about themselves and let me talk. Actually do I want to talk this energy vampire who has drained me of my energy and my ability to mumble anything other then yes or no I seriously need help or you know people to not be selfish and allow me to voice these dark thoughts ceeeping around in my head…. you know the usual
love is a funny thing to me as I want to embrace it wholeheartedly to be loved, to allow myself to be loved and also to show love in return but I’m the type of girl who withdraws into herself to the point where it’s difficult for me to let anybody in it’s probably why when a minor issue arises in past relationships instead of fighting I tend to flee. As fast and as far as possible considering I always speak my mind this is a strange occurrence but may also be due to the fact that when you love someone it is often times more difficult to speak how you truly feel. I plan to work on this aspect of myself it will take a while but I’ll get there.
Can I be peaceful or do I even know what that word entails I wish I did but I’d much rather be a combative individual who picks fights with people who piss me of because it’s what fun. Trying to breathe through it is not my style at all I breathe every day to survive I refuse to breathe through people and their nauseating sense of entitlement to irritate the fuck out of you then skip on their merry way this ain’t narnia no happy ending 😒. I’m not an angry black woman im a black woman who gets angry quite often please learn this and there shall be no problems at all you feel me…..
signed petty petty and sistah petty
cocoa rose 2016 (c) ❤️💛💚